It’s hard when something unexpected happens in your life. It catches you off guard, you’re not prepared for it. You have no idea what to do. You know it happened for a reason, but you don’t know what it is yet. And when you finally realize why it makes you feel like some sort of door opened in your life. Now you’re just waiting to step through that door to see what’s on the other side, but you can’t. Something is keeping you back, you’re still holding on. It takes all of you strength to let go and take that first step. And when you do.. It feels like a breath of fresh air.
I miss having days like these.. Going to the city after not being there for so long feels really good. I love having that feeling inside of me and just being there, I couldn’t stop smiling. Today was really different though. I went with Corey and Joey, and we went to stores that I’ve never been to, and other parts of the city like Soho. We weren’t there for long because we realized we got off at the wrong spot..
The best part of my day was being with Unique Movement and ProjectD. We went to Unique Movement’s rehearsal where PD was teaching. We were almost an hour late, but I felt proud of us when we caught up on more than half the piece in the twenty minutes that we were there. Afterwards we all went to Shake Shack and waited in a ridiculously long line, but in the end it was all worth it. It was different being with people I’m not usually around, but I really loved today.
I still believe that everything happens for a reason. Although there are times when it’s hard to see that reason I try not to get discouraged. I know that I have to be patient and things will eventually get better.
If I learned anything in the past few weeks it’s to notlet myself get worked up over certain things. I hear a lot of cliche sayings, one of them being, don’t worry about everything single thing. I never really took that saying it into consideration until it applied to my life. It’s all such a waste of my time, and I don’t have enough of life to worry about it.
There is no set way in which things are supposed to be. How am I supposed to tell if what’s happening or what’s going to happen is right or not? I don’t know my future, I don’t know what it’s going to be like. Nothing told me that this is the way it should be. I have to decide that for myself.
I’m actually going to really miss dm when they leave for college..
Today felt like a bonding day with dm, especially with Corey. It sucks though because he’s leaving for California during the summer. Some of Newgroundz and Abby got there about a hour and a half earlier than everyone else for his birthday. But that was enough time to create our stupid insiders. After the rest of dm came, and after Paco’s “Birthday Cake” performance, we ate, made snow cones, and lost Regina..
Honestly today was so much better than I expected. I love you guys.