It’s true, people come and go. In my life I’ve never really lost someone that meant a lot to me. I’ve lost people in my family, but I never really knew them. I’ve also lost friends, but for some reason I don’t remember caring too much about it. I’m not going to be ready for this if it happens. I wouldn’t know how to deal with it or what to do.
I looked at my calendar and I realized that school starts in a week. I only have a week of summer left. I feel like that passed by so quickly, and it’s almost the end of the year too. Everything is just happening so fast. Plus, I can already feel the temperature changing. It’s getting cooler and cooler everyday. Don’t get me wrong I love fall, but I swear summer started yesterday. I don’t remember any other summer feeling like it passed by this quickly.
I know a lot of people that don’t have power, they have flooding, etc. all from this hurricane. I feel lucky that I got my power back the same day and I have no other problems. I feel bad for everyone else though who’s getting their power back in a week or who has major flooding.
First of all the earthquake was barely anything just a little shake. And this “hurricane” is a category 1. No houses are gonna collapse or float off into floods. We’ll probably just have a lot of rain, a blackout, etc. People are getting too hyped up about all of this.
The amount of followers I have don't really matter to me.
Honestly, I don’t care if I have 100 or 1,000 because my followers don’t make up my blog, I do. A lot of people just post shit up just because they’re trying to gain more followers. They become fake people online wanting to impress other people. I only know a handful of people who post what they want, when they want, how they feel, and they don’t care about how many followers they have. They don’t lie about it and they don’t base other people’s tumblrs on how many followers they have.
I basically did nothing today except go to Isabelle’s house for a little because Ryan was there. (which I still can’t believe) Then I came home and chilled with my brother and my cousin. Now I’m wearing my new clothes because I like them (:
I went to Jersey Gardens today with my cousin, brother and my mommy. She said it was to buy new clothes for school which I did buy a lot of (: I’m actually really excited to wear them.
Anyway, we were about to leave and the last store we were going to was Forever 21. As soon as we were about to enter I had to pee really badly, so I rushed to the bathroom because I didn’t want to shop with my bladder full. I was in a hurry and I set my phone down somewhere. I left the bathroom, bought stuff at Forever 21, and then a couple minutes later I realize my phone isn’t with me. I started to panic and I figured the only place it could be was the bathroom. I walk in there with my cousin looking everywhere and I didn’t see it. The next thing I know my mom calls my cousin telling us to go to hollister because some Asian lady has my phone. I was completely confused, but we rush there anyway. My mom is walking out of the store to meet us with my phone in her hand and I was so relieved. She tells me to walk in hollister to thank the lady and I do. It was really awkward, but I’m really lucky that she gave my phone back to me. I’m glad she found it and not somebody else.
What I realized about my best friend. Honestly, I don’t understand why I’m realizing this now, but Jenessa has natural beauty. She is beautiful. She doesn’t need makeup to look more presentable. Because she’s gorgeous without it. I think the first thing anyone would notice on Jenessa’s face would be her long evenly-parted eyelashes. I envy those so much too. Her smile is big and happy. Not crooked or fake. Jenessa’s hair is silky and smooth, its naturally wavy, but I would die for natural wavy hair.
She’s too beautiful. That’s why I always loved her. And to add on to her appearance, her personality is pure and true. My best friend, you are amazing just the way you are.
Isabelle, you’re amazing and beautiful. Don’t ever forget that. I love you for you and that will never change. You just made my morning. And your smile.. I love it. It’s beautiful, remember that.
At the end I like being able to say. “I liked today.” Despite the parts of the day where I became angry, I can still look past those moments and think about the good things that happened today. And even though every moment wasn’t great I can still look at them and learn. I can open up my mind and realize that things aren’t always what I’m used to and understand why. I like today.
I can’t even imagine.. It just makes me so angry that people would do that. They’re fake. They don’t understand dancing like real dancers do. They don’t understand how much of a passion and love we have for it. They don’t know how many hours we spend in hot musty studios or how many sacrifices we make for it. They don’t know what it’s like to have so many people around you telling you to quit be because it’s cutting in to other activities, but how hard you’re willing to fight for it. And most importantly they don’t know how much it can change a person’s life. Dancing for the hype.. It just puzzles my mind. I dance because I love it. Not because I want to seem cool to other people or to fit in. I dance because I can’t imagine my life without it.
I’m so embarrassing in public. My laugh is so obnoxious. And the way I act is so weird and awkward. I’ll start dancing randomly, but that’s normal. I’m always hyper and silly. That’s just me. Embarrassing.
This summer passed by so suddenly. I literally felt like it was the other day that I graduated middle school. I’ve had so many ups and downs this summer and there is still more to come. I honestly feel like most of this summer had to do with dance. And I really feel like I grew up a lot. I don’t know if I can say this summer was the best, but it made me think a lot. I realized so many things and my outlook on everything has just expanded. I’m ready for the new school year. I’m excited, but also scared. I don’t want to think about because I’ll realize that there’s only about 2 weeks left of summer and the year is almost over. The next month is almost here and so is the next year. I just can’t believe how quickly time is passing.
I had two performances today. One for band and one for dance. I woke up early like I usually do for band, but this time we had an extended lunch since we had to get ready and put our uniforms on. Isabelle and I decided to go to Joey’s house for lunch. We got there, ate, then we put on our uniforms. We were already getting hot because we had clothes on underneath our uniforms since we were supposed to. When we got back to the school we had to take pictures which felt like forever. Then we went out onto the field to perform. I messed up so many times, and it didn’t help that I barely memorized my music. Anyway, after the performance we had to go straight to the meadowlands for our dance performance. Isabelle and I were rushing so much because we were supposed to get there earlier and our ride was waiting on us for 20 minutes. Our instructor gave us a ride and we were squished in with some of newgroundz. I think that our car was the loudest out of everyone’s. We were screaming, laughing, singing, doing a whole bunch of crazy things. In all, I think that was the most fun I’ve ever had in a car ride. We made a couple stops but once we finally got there we met up with the rest of newgroundz and went inside. Even though I couldn’t perform I was still in the mindset that I was going to. I was rushing with them because they were on soon, I was getting nervous and excited for them too. They were on pretty soon after we got inside, and once they got on stage Justin and I rushed to the front to go watch. We were standing in the front and cheering so loud that the people told us to move because they couldn’t see. We were shouting for iNSPIRED!, DM, and I found it weird that I was cheering for newgroundz and not performing with them. It was weird being on the other side of it. It was different and it made me realize how badly I wanted to be up there on stage with DM and inspired. But it was okay because after the performance we hung out with inspired the whole time.
This week went by way too slowly. I felt like one week of my summer was just wasted going to band camp from 8am to 5pm. But now I’m so relieved that I don’t have to wake up early and go in the heat. My body can finally rest and I won’t have to come home in pain everyday. I’m going to make these last few weeks of summer the best just to make up for the week I lost.
I guarantee I’ll feel the same way tomorrow. Stressed, anrgry, having a crappy day. I’m going to say that I hate band the whole day. Then when I come home I’ll ignore my parents go straight to my room on the verge of crying myself to sleep. I already know what to expect for tomorrow.