Just saying,in my opinion,words can hurt sometimes. They may hurt more than a simple broken bone. How? Well a broken bone has the possibility of going away. Words can stay in your head forever. It’s something you’ll never forget you know? When people tell me horrible/offending comments,it’s hard for me to let it go. It’s like a virus that’s stuck in my head that I can’t seem to get out.
That’s why I try my best to not give up on myself or towards others. I like motivating people to try their hardest, to actually do something for the better, etc. Don’t act like your life is over or as if no one cares about you. Because believe me, there’s so much more people out there who actually cares, just like me. And maybe, just maybe, in the end, there might be a slight chance of hope that’ll help you gain the courage to try again.
You say that when you don’t vent out to someone or at least tell someone your problems, you’ll build up all of this anger. Then eventually you’ll start taking out your anger on random people by talking back to them or becoming angry at everything. I just smirk and think to myself, I’m a pro at hiding my feelings. I’m a pro at not venting out to people. I’m a pro at keeping my problems to myself. But I know that I shouldn’t do that. What will I ever get out of that? Playing music or dancing can only hold back my feelings for so long. I know that sooner or later I’ll burst. There will come a point where I just can’t hold in my feelings anymore.
I hate having a thought that never leaves. Whether they’re doubts or just typical thoughts, when I’m trying to focus on other necessary things, I can’t stay on task because my mind is somewhere else. I can’t seem to forget it on my own. I just have to wait for it to leave. My own thoughts have a mind of their own. It itches in the back of my mind almost to the point where I wanna throw a book at someone. I get so aggravated, LKAJSHKAJSD.
It’s when you’re alone when everything seems to be falling apart. You start to think about topics that you never thought of until you were left alone. What someone said to you before didn’t impact you so much until you had the moment to actually think about what they meant. That feeling when you think you have no friends. Alone moments.
Take chances, take a lot of them. Because honestly, no matter where you end up and with whom, it always ends up just the way it should be. Your mistakes make you who you are. You learn and grow with each choice you make. Everything is worth it. Say how you feel, always. Be you, and be okay with it.
My parents are so weird.. My dad comes home singing and mom says that they brought home leftovers. I ask them, “Did you guys go out on a date or something?” My mom says, “Yeah, why do you think your dad came through the door singing at the top of his lungs?”
-Company class, then seeing Paco as center :)
-Going to the mall with Isabelle as usual
-Having her teach me how to put on eyeliner ^-^
-Then realizing that she put lip balm on her eyes thinking it was eye shadow and telling her that the “lotion” she put on her hands was actually shampoo..
-Playing dress up at Forever 21 and actually buying a romper
-And of course, laughing until we almost peed ourselves.
Those times when I didn’t care. I just did what I wanted to do. No problems, no struggle. Watching my favorite cartoons and playing Crash Bandicoot until I was kicked off for being on too long. When we didn’t have to worry about the danger lurking in every direction. Pokemon card trading, Yu-Gi-Oh action figures. When no one needed to critisize you for who you are. I remember it was so easy to forgive someone and to forget. It’s crazy how your views change throughout life.